Start Believing for it.

I am one of those people that pictures the worst-case scenario in nearly every situation. I've held the belief that if I can imagine the worst possible outcome, then I'll know how to handle it when it inevitably comes my way. Because of this belief, I've lived a life of playing small, and not seeking out the direction that I really think God wants me to go, since "I'll probably fail," "I'm probably not good enough," "This really isn't practical; I need to do the logical thing." I've lived a great life clinging tight to a spirit of disappointment. This is not to say that I hate my life or that I'm disappointed in my life, but there are definitely aspects of my life that would have been totally different if I had believed that there was a better plan than mine.

Right now, T and I are working to buy a house and get married in a fairly short amount of time. And that nasty little spirit of disappointment and a spirit of fear are hanging on tight to me. I keep fighting it, but there is so much uncertainty and so many unknowns, that it's making me nervous. I've asked my close people to keep praying on our behalf, and if you're reading this, then I'll ask you too, to keep praying on our behalf that God will make His plan known and that it will be more amazing than we can possibly believe.

I know that He'll move and that He's made more things possible for us, especially in the last year, so why am I so afraid to believe this will happen for us?

Isaiah 60:22 says, "When the time is right, I the Lord will make it happen." This both a major relief and a little bit of a stressor for me. Today, I'm going to dare to believe that God will make something beautiful happen for us.

Consider This: What are some ways that God has shown up for you again and again? Do you see a pattern in those ways?